This is my response post to this post. I wanted to comment, but I thought it was going to get too lengthy. I’m sure your questions were meant to be rhetorical, but I will answer them as best I can.
Most important life choices are not simple for a reason. If you could easily choose between choice A and choice B, there would not be any reason to think about them. And rarely are choices ever broken down to just two. Many times there is a multitude of choices making it even more difficult and brain-asploding. I’ve noticed an ongoing trend that people are becoming more and more indecisive every day. My hypothesis for this is that people are scared of making the wrong choice causing them to not want to pull the trigger. Better to not choose at all than to make the wrong one. But what if there is no right choice? You cannot presume to know that every outcome will be pleasant. But by not choosing, you are essentially saying that you prefer someone or something else to make the choice for you. In this way, you become a passive participant in your own life, rather than the active liver you are meant to be. For me, I try hard to live by intuition, meaning I try to clear my mind of the garbage that constantly floods it and then listen to what my intuition has to say. It’s not always easy, but what I’ve found is that it helps me make decisions without letting stupid things like emotions cloud my judgment.
Everything is not a trade off. Some things are meant to happen to teach you things. Your situation is as it is to help you, not make you miserable. It may not be your most favoritest perfect happy situation, but who ever gets that? Even people who have everything aren’t satisfied, because they only think they have everything and what they really have is junk. I absolutely loathe my current job, and I’ve tried to find another, but so far no luck. It doesn’t mean I have to be miserable there. I need to learn to live with a sucky situation and use it as my motivation to do my schoolwork so that when the time is right, I will shed that job like a two week-old layer of skin. One of the things that makes me happy at work is reminding myself that I’m not going to be there forever.
You are unhappy now, because you’re not getting enough Vitamin D due to lack of sunlight exposure. The atmosphere in Michigan is too dense with water vapor, which blocks most of the ultraviolet rays that cause your skin to produce Vitamin D. Take a supplement or just do what everyone else does: get some happy pills.